I thought I was always someone
who knew what I wanted.
like that pretty dress in that shop
that cost a bomb and i will get it
I must get it.
now, im not sure what I want anymore.
I mean, if the dress is too expensive.
and you can't afford it.
then it isn't meant to be yours.
right?
saving up for it and realising that it
has gone out of stock will only lead
to heartbreaks, disappointment and futility.

And you could be setting yourself up for an inevitable emotional collapse.